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Monday, February 8, 2010

Hello.
Sadded(if you know what i meant,hahs). Didn't see "Wentworth Miller" anywhere today. He went back to the States and will only be back after CNY. -_-"
Nonetheless,work is slightly better than before, but definitely not the toilet. Haiya. Belom masok, dah rase nak muntah. AHAHAHAHAHAHAAA:D
I tried my very best to control whatever nature calls that comes my way.
Sanggup, you know!(:

Short and meaningless post eh, i know! hahs.

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Sunday, February 7, 2010

Ustazah looked at me and said this out of the blue.
"Sabar, yakin dan ingat dengan Allah, nanti Allah tolong."
Macam tau aje orang dalam kesusahan.
Pandai betul ustazah ni.

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Friday, February 5, 2010

It has been a rough journey for me right from the start. And i am taking it slowly bit by bit, sometimes it got so difficult, i wanted to scream badly. Its not even half a year, but i've cried a river. I knew there's a glimmer of hope somewhere, but i've learnt not to hope so much cos' usually i'll ended up crying,again. Such a crybaby, i know. hahs.

On a brighter note, i am so looking forward to work on Monday. Because, i'll be able to see "Wentworth Miller" more often since the machines im supposed to deal with is located somewhere near his area. Nyeheheheheeheheeee..YES! YES! YES!

"Perangai dog eh!" -Nariah
Ok lah bye lah bye lahhhhhhh..

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Thursday, February 4, 2010

Totally hooked to Justin Bieber's song. hahahahahaa:D
Particularly, BABY!
Been singing that song at work with Nariah. hehehee.. Earworm lahhh..
Anyway, i saw "Wentworth Miller" at work again, this time, a clearer and better view.
Such an eyecandy mannn..and i am somehow excited to meet Kak Devis again, she's funny. I like.

So far, okay lah. The only thing i hate currently: having unspeakable stomach cramps early in the morning everyday. Tsk tsk, dari zaman primary school sampai secondary school sampai skarang,the same old problem. Yang peliknyer, kalau nak keluar rumah,confirm sakit perot. hahs.
They said, it has got to do with bad anxiety. Actually true ahh, i'll literally switch myself to nervous/anxious mode each time i'm about to leave the house,subconsciously. I don't know why. LOL. I am crazyyy. Nuff said.

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Tuesday, February 2, 2010

Hello.
Now i know, working is not easy.
Now i know, working is hardwork.
Now i know, money is hard to come by.
Now i know, schooling is way better than working.
Now i know, why the teachers always said, "schooling is the best moments in your life."
With that, i've learnt to appreciate MONEY and not
take things for granted. Promise.
AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAA:D

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Sunday, January 31, 2010

Hello.
I spent 1/2 of my Sunday, clearing up all the mess in my room.
Oh my goodness, i don't even know where to start initially cos' it was so messy. Much worse than you thought,ok? My mum shouted at me early in the morning to clean up the room right away. No more dilly dally shilly shally. AHAHAHAHAHAHA:D She said "bilik kau dah mcm bangla quarters kau tau tak?!" LOL. And mind you, she screamed at the top of her lungs. I totally freaked out and started working on it. All in all, i am happy to have a clean and tidy room,once again. hehehehee..Anyway, i am starting work tommorrow. HOHOHOHO, Fazilah is going to work.
See ya.

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Thursday, January 28, 2010

Currently living a sad and pathetic life, deep down inside.
Mentally draining. Weak in the knees. Sick and tired of everything.
Happy on the outside, but dying inside.

"Slowly drowning in my sorrow, wishing things would be better tommorrow.
Feeling like i am in an ocean of doubt and despair, gradually sinking and gasping for air.
I am aware that life is not a light switch you can flip on and off, simply settling and accepting everything and carry on. And i am trying to keep my sanity and composure intact, out of fear of those close to me might react.
I make a foolish attempt to have a good night's rest in my lumpy bed.
Knowing that there are others out there, 10 times better than me,
I am afraid and thus let out defeated sighs."

One word : FRUSTRATED.
Don't ask me any further about anything. I had enough. Seriously.

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Sunday, January 24, 2010

I remembered going to school with them during Sec 1 laughing and joking together all the time. And if that day happen to be a "Math test" day or any other days that requires intensive thinking. I'll be the first one among them to start having cold feets and fretting over it,even before doing it. ahahahaahhaa:D

5 years later, on the way back from school together after receiving the results, I realised we didn't change AT ALL.

Mizah and Kinah, still joking and laughing together like gundus(very carefree!).
And me, being the overly paranoid one, crying over the results but started to laugh along with them subconsciously .

At the end of the day, we are still the same Faz, Mizah and Kinah, exactly the same kukuheads like 5 years back. Ok fine, probably the body sizes are slightly different now. Ahahahahahaaa:D

And thinking about it, i couldn't stop smiling.
Forget all the fights and arguments we had along the way.
Just remember the fun times we had together,ok?
Like the times we played soccer together in Wellness Club(ehem ehemm, clubbing lah!).
Damn, i can still remember how terrified i was with that botak coach, sampai nangis nangis dalam toilet. ahahahahaha:D

All in all, I missed them.

Ps: i pon rindu Nariah lah! ahahahahahahaha:D

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Wednesday, January 20, 2010

Currently watching Mayang Mengurai on tv3. Tania Hudson is so cantik,but her acting is pretty bad. And the story is so draggy! But nice to watch. Ahahahahaaa:D

Anyway, the initial plan today was to eat as little as possible. I managed to do so,all the way till 8pm. And dad just have to spoil my plan by coming back home with satays. -_-"
So being me, i joined in. LOL.
Nothing goes as planned eh(:

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Tuesday, January 19, 2010

Mum: Hetty, kenape rambut hetty atasnyer pendek pendek? U cut ah?
Hetty: Ya, i cut my hair.
Mum: huh?! hetty potong sendiri? with what?!
Hetty: Yaaaaa, with my toy scissor lahh.
AHAHAHAHAHAHAHA:D
That little brat berbual selamba aje. I laughed hysterically when she said that.
then she said " what?! not funny ok faziah!"
Fyi, she can't pronounce my name properly and apparently i've gotten used to it. ahahahaa..

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Monday, January 18, 2010

Why is the world so messed up?

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Sunday, January 17, 2010

Hello! I am freaking excited when i got the kit. AHAHAHAHAA:D
Well, i dragged my mum and sis to Watsons for that. heheheheee..

"All the things that break you, are all the things that make you strong.
You can't change the past, 'cause it's gone and you just gotta move on."
-Carrie Underwood

Well said, i must say.
Ok chiaoz!

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Saturday, January 16, 2010

This was taken during the school fun fair in June '09. I was doing the trial for the Crazy Sailors, which i thought was a total failure and obviously stupid! AHAHAHAHAHAHAAA:D

Anyway, i was almost late for Andalus just now. But i made it just in time. Heh. And again, i saw someone while i was placing my sandals(hurriedly) on the shoe racks before entering Andalus. This time, Mdm Rashidah. Well, i didn't hide and i didn't run. LOL.
It was an eye-to-eye contact lah, so no choice but to go through it. heh.
She said "ape awak buat kat sini?" ikutkan hati nak ckp, "saye ustazah sambilan kat sini lah cikgu." ahahahahahahahahahaha..but obviously i didn't. I said i was there to study,what else can it be? ahahahahahahaa:D She was there for her daughter,1st day masok sekolah.
I dah 5 years and still counting, u know! Lama tu! *grin*

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Friday, January 15, 2010

My cliques.

I am not trying to be mushy here but hey, i love all of you!
May all of you succeed in life. AMIN!
You guys are the best people whom i've come acrossed in life,so far.
Trust me, i won't forget anyone of you. And i promise(or probably TRY) not to run or hide if i were to see anyone of you outside someday. Heheheheee..
We shall have a meet-up one day,ok? A full strength.
Nilah lah plan. ahahahahahahaa:D

Did i tell you? I saw Mdm Fadilah and Mdm Nora at Macdonalds just now, and i hide away.
Well, it was a subconscious thing yet again..AHAHAHAHAHAHAAA:D pardon me. LOL
Okay then, cheerios!

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Thursday, January 14, 2010

Faz & Fad

Hang out with her just now while waiting patiently for the pretty handsome indian guy to service her laptop in RP and i literally shut down when i reached home. AHAHAHAHAAHAHAA:D Totally lethargic. Too much slacking and bumming around do make you tired,u know.
Well, I saw a few familiar faces there too and managed to hide away. LOL. Hows that?
Heh, I hate being me so much at times, i'm so negative and i have so many problems(which im not even sure of..ahaha..) Trust me, i hate being like this. It just happen,subconsciously. Saw someone familiar?hide! or worse still,run! Thats it. Hehehehee.. I'll change. Promise! Just give me time for me to accept myself first. Very low self-esteem eh.